Yellow Rose

Walking in faith while I battle ALS.

Monday, March 19, 2007

BREATHING - HAIKU

Since my lungs are getting weaker because of ALS, I sleep with a Bi-Pap machine which helps my lungs exhale.



My breathing is slow
all I get is a thin stream of it
I inhale anyway.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

MY DNA

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Life


I am often asked how I am doing. My stock answer is ‘as well as can be expected, under the circumstances.’ The truth is, I’m never sure which part of the question to answer. Life has a kaleidoscopic quality – something beautiful one minute followed by something different the next. Constantly changing, never precisely repeatable – a captivating swirl of events, memories, and emotions. What I’ve noticed this year is that thoughts, events, and emotions swirl by so fast that I don’t have a chance to settle in to a single, enduring reaction to the whole experience. I think I’m glad for that, even though it’s tiring to swing through such a wide array of emotions several times each day. Sometimes I wish desperately for a different reality; sometimes I realize how extremely lucky I have been.

Monday, March 05, 2007

One Deep Breath - "Mud" Haiku

Hi everyone! This is Tammy from The Daily Warrior and I wanted to let everyone know that Helen has been adjusting to some big changes in her life due to her ALS. She is struggling with her speech and typing. She wants you to know that she reads your haiku each week and it means alot to her to be part of One Deep Breath. She is having very hard days and I know you will keep her in your thoughts and prayers.

She fights for her life
feeling alone in the mire
we can lift her up

Saturday, March 03, 2007

wilting flower


This is what and how I think everyday since I can no longer use my once loud voice to express my feelings aloud. Behind the facsade of hope, my smile, is a wilting flower. The same flower that inspires others to live, love, and laugh is slowly losing her petals and once vibrant color. My roots are drying up. I get an occasional sprinkle but it doesn't seem to reach the depth of my soul.